i got a job at petsmart bathing puppies and dealing with their shitty caretakers, going to stick with it for as long as it takes me to get a car and then find something else to do. excited to be able to start riding again; horsemanship and dog things are pretty much the only things i give a shit enough about to focus on i guess. which is great, because working with and understanding animals is better than anything.

jayda lives here now, i am currently working on retraining her with +R/-P [we're using a clicker right now]. learning theory makes so much sense and i can't believe its taken me eight years to see that i really don't need to force the dog go with my ideas, because they are not obligated to me in any way and that would be entirely unfair to them. still wanting to share my life with another dog, but i guess i'll wait until jay passes away since she's quite dog reactive and i'm in a house with two other people. thinking i might go for a game bred apbt? i really want to train in mondioring or french ring, and i need a very light and very athletic dog to do so. but, i could also probably just as easily find a lean athletic high drive dog at a rescue, so that is certainly an option. unsure if i want a malinois or an apbt @_@ but this is probably thinking way too far ahead. also really hoping to get into eventing when i can ride.

BUT i really need to focus on transitioning shit first because i start crying and want to suicide every time i'm misgendered and hit on when i go walking anywhere at all

also here is my dog/horse blog- [link]